Eddie

Eddieboy

As the world prepared and begin the counting to welcome 2019, my 67 years old mother, brother, sister-in-law and my nephew were at the San Lorenzo Ruiz Chapel in Sta. Ana which served as our temporary shelter as the remains of my youngest brood temporary rest.

It was a mixture of emotion whether to accept that my brother, Eddieboy was finally gone for good and he will no longer suffer from the effects of stroke, or whether to feel sad that our most important gathering in the family was also the wake of our youngest.

Since I was born, New Year has always been the best celebration for our household this day is the birthday of our father, Manuel. Unfortunately, this 2019 was not the case.

Eddieboy has once again shown me that we can make a difference in our little way, just as he helped people I never knew despite being a tricycle driver.

Sorry may too late and unnecessary, still I ask for your forgiveness for the things I failed to do intentionally or unintentionally. But one thing is sure and certain, I love you and will always love you as my brother.

ISANG ARAW

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Hindi na ako natutuwa.
Nagsasawa ako na iisa lang
ang naririnig.

Sana man lang mayroon din nasaan ka na? 
Na mayroon rin, late na bakit wala ka pa?

Hindi ako umiimik.
Wala halos mensahe
Baka sakaling mapansin mo.

Sa gabi, inaantay kita

Na kahit inaantok na 

Umaasang baka sakaling kamustahin 

moman lang.

Nasaan na ang taong minahal ko? 

Hindi ko siya makita.

Kung mawala kaya ako, 

Siguro, isang araw hindi ka masasaktan
Sapagkat hindi mo na rin ako nakikita.

Umiikot at natatapos ang araw sa buhay mo,
na buhay mo lang, wala na ako.

Malungkot na isang araw
muli akong magpapaalam
dahil naiwan na naman akong nagiisa.

Masakit kasi nakikita ko muli
ang sarili sa nakaraan,
na ang akala ko na hindi ko
kailangang iwan.
Na sa hinaharap, isang araw, kailangan kong muling pakawalan.

Sakaling mangyari nga maalala mo man lang sana kahit sandali ang kahapong nagdaan.

SOBS

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As my heart sobs and cry, no one must see.

I am hurting, and in pain.

I thought love can do wonders.

That the heart can express what the tongue fails to articulate.

That in the absence of the words, love can help one understand.

When will you look at me?

When will you see me more than the eyes can see?

Should you lose me first 

So you can hear the sobs

or hear the words without the letters?

I am crying but the tears were withdrawn from the eyes ....