MULI

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Nasaan na?
Ito na ba ang simula?
Nandito na naman bang muli?
Mag-iisang muli na naman ba?

Masakit makitang may mga araw ng lumilipas na wala ng lambingan.
Na dumadaan ang araw na halos walang mapag usapan.
Na parang nasa magkabilang pahina ng magkaibang libro.
Na dapat huwag mo na lang punahin para walang pagtatalunan.

Bakit pakiramdam ko ...

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Buti ang cellphone laging nadadampian ng kamay at atensiyon mo ...

HURTING

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I am hurt.

I am trying to avoid this feeling for some time.

That I am afraid to confront this reality yet, here it is again.

I don't want to entertain the fact that you are hurting me 
and you can cause me pain, so badly.

I am far like you.
I am an emotional person.
And I don't easily forget.

It is precisely the reason why not all are welcome to enter my life.

You have no idea how much heartache you are giving me, yet after the pain has subsided 
I go on loving you.

Like you, many times I have shrugged off an issue in order to avoid a conflict.

In the hope that you will also recognize my sacrifices
rather than complain about my moods and character.

A lot of times, I want to let you go so you might miss me somehow.

That you might see my worth when I am already gone and far from you.

I don't know where life will lead us,
but I wish somehow, someday you will also see me 
and the simple sacrifices I am doing for you, and for us.

And yes, I am still hurting, again.

PATIENCE

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We are still supposed to be on a honeymoon period.

Yet, the love and relationship is being challenged early on by a lot of things, 
especially by my health condition.

There were arguments, tears, and misunderstandings.

But equally, we made a lot of happy memories, laughters, smiles, 
plays, singin together and many other things.

And there is no denying that I lose some of myself, and the me that I get to introduced to you.

I admit I am double or triple times impatient, hard to understand and sometimes impossible to love.

I will not give a reason or excuse as to why I am like this, but rather I will appeal for more understanding.

Like you, I am struggling, to overcome a lot of things from physical to mental, 
so once more, I ask you to bear with ME.

NATIONALISM

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I am a Filipino by blood, thoughts, character and nationality.

As a child and as a student that I am today, I asked, how can I become relevant?

How can a young and free-spirited character that I am, can show love for my own nation.

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That everytime I turned to watched the news on television they were talking about extra-judicial killing and clipping the budget of the Commission on Human Rights.

Is it really that bad, I asked my self? But again, I questionned how can a child and a student can make sense when chaos is brewing outside the comforts of their home and school?

And then I remember, we are made to commit, to take our oath, the Panatang Makabayan.

That as a Filino and as a student, we should obey the rules of our school. And that we have to always follow the rules of our government.

Because everytime we exercise dilligence and give pride to our family, we similarly accord the same pride and dignity to our Alma Mater and to our nation, the Philippines.

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I am a Filipino by blood, thoughts, character and nationality.

SUFFICIENT

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Somewhere along life, we wander.

And whether we do it for the right reason or just the spur of the moment,
it doestn't matter.

Because like any student that we always are, we need to learn.

And in the subject lesson called LIFE, we need experience.

And in the process of collecting life's data, experiences and facts, time is essential in order to process it.

So in life, it does not really matter whether you arrived in your target destination ahead of everyone, in time or a little delayed.

What is important is that you arrived sufficient of knowledge, equipped with essential values and with the right heart to love and appreciate.

UNWORTHY

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Too proud.
Yes. You are.
Such a proud and arrogant person.

You forgot the essence of friendship.
That you will only remember someone when you are in need, like the last time.

I thought we call each other friends,
   but I am very wrong.
Because a person of your kind don't          deserve the kind of friendship I know.

Anyway, thank you for teaching me
   to avoid your kind.
That the time spent with you
   should serve as an eye opener.
That you are not worthy of my
   friendship, much my time.

I hope one day you will realize
   the value of true friends, its dynamics
   and to nurture the friendship in its
   true and real sense.

REMEMBER

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Every now and then we get tired.

One day we wake up in the morning hopeful.

That whatever happens you will be okay.

But the next time you open your eyes you are thinking differently.

That you just wanted to go with the flow.

And then you will remember you entrusted your life with God.

There are times we cannot feel His presence.

We forget that we are no longer in control and it's okayanyway we are only human.

And what matters is we recognize Him the moment we remember.