YOU of my LIFE

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I have been sick for some time, 

Yet I still get up every morning happy. 

Not only because I am still alive

But more because of YOU.

It has become a habit that makes me smile,

A habit that never fails to make me happy 

because of your simple “good morning”

For it brings life to my usual boring day.

But when you forget, when you are not the

Usual you and do not give me that morning delight

I feel bad and very sad.

Can the morning of each day be just you and me?

Will it be possible that you will only think of me?

Will it be alright that I will just be the one in your mind?

Will it be okay to always be by my side?

Will you care for me every day and night?

I love you, which is why I miss you every time you are not you.

Is it wrong to miss the one that I love?

I hope you are like me as I am to you

I miss you every minute of the hour because you are my LIFE.

PAINFUL LESSON

I may be right. I may be wrong.    

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But this time there will be no second chances.

If one commits a mistake, one should own up for his own mistake.

We all should learn from our own failures.

I don’t think that because one member of our family says he is miserable

We will just embrace him and will say, okay I’ll clean up your mess or

I will handle your problem, because if we do so, it will become a cycle.

That one person will not grow up and learn.

No matter how much we care about a person or love that one member of our family

We should also let them fall sometimes even if it will mean a hard fall or

It will hurt them badly, that is if you want them to become better.

But if you only want to spare them from pain simply because you don’t want them to be hurt, I guess we are not helping him or her to grow up.

Loving also means losing control over someone.

Allowing them to feel the pain and get hurt every now and then.

We will not be around forever to always spare our loved ones from the pain.

We have to also let them learn to address their own issues alone and learn from it by themselves.

I am sorry, but not this time. I will not tolerate. Not now,

Not tomorrow, not anytime soon. You have to grow up on your own.

Because every now and then I also fall, and make mistakes but I do get up alone.

I never ask anyone to help me out whether it is personal, family or work issues.

It is important for all of us to know how to decide, to know when to pursue

And when to stop, to understand, to accept and a lot more other things that are important

In this journey called life in order to survive.

A LETTER

(an excerpt from my Wattpad story Amar um Desconhecido 
[loving an unknown])


To my dear Annie,

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As I sleep tonight and close my eyes, I will try to forget. Tomorrow and the days to come, I will try to open my hands more and wider hopefully to loosen my grip until I can hold no more.   

Every day I will repeat the process. Yes, one day at a time until I remember no more. I know the first attempt is always the hardest. Admittedly, I failed several times. But I will patiently try again and again until such time that I can master my first try.

When I'm done, I would not want to remember anything about you. Perhaps, I'd look back one day and will think of it as part of my stupid adventure where I accidentally slip while walking on a clear pavement.

If hating would be of great help, I would gladly embrace it at this time, for it might expedite the process.

Today, I commit to myself, never again, not anymore for it is very unworthy, and such a waste.

I would instead look closer, in a more narrow direction, to what is simple, happy and beautiful. I am stupid yes, but never blind. I know, I already have it with me and will make sure that I will not lose that treasure for anyone else.

So now, I say GOODBYE.

Sincerely,

Cielo