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Have you been challenged to step up to prove you are worth the try?
Since today is about the matters of the heart as we celebrate Valentine's Day, of course, I too have my share of the challenges, as well as the trials of falling in love and wanting to win the love.
Back then, I was in a 13-year relationship but unhappy. I felt we managed to stay that long together because of the comfortability of set up, plus we don't fight. Hence, no reason for breakup.
In the 10 years of the relationship, I was already praying that I may be able to have the courage to face the problem as I have been frequently airing my concerns to the person I am with and would always be promised to work on them. But in the end, no action was taken.
In the 11th year, I met a friend. We both have a connection but not sufficient to grow into something else. In the 12th year, I accidentally chance upon a high school crush via a social media group of our batch. I happily told my partner about everything, but I was asked to stop without allowing me to finish my story. Flashback a little, early on in the relationship I was told that I am free to admire and fancy celebrities and players but never an ordinary person including those with titles even if they are not popular, because my partner then believed that I can lure anyone to also like me.
So I never mentioned, raised the name or talked to my partner again about that crush of mine, but neither did I stop. In fact, I managed to keep a good friendly relationship, and as I went along, I welcomed conversations that I mostly initiated. It then validated one thing, that I am done with the person I am with back then. Precisely the reason why I could clearly see the problems and mistakes because I have lost the love.
The issue of unhappiness eventually evolved into how to tell the person that I have fallen out of love, and that I wanted out of the relationship when the one I am with continue to refuse to recognize that we had a was already over.
Then we had this weekend activity that lasted about four at dawn, as we were cleaning up the bottles, the question was asked of me, "are you happy?" For me it was like a gun pointing at me, an unguarded question at an prepared instant that got my nerves shaking and made me really palpitate. After moments of composing myself I answered, "do you want an honest answer?"
To cut the story short a little over a month after the 13th year, we bid goodbye. It was a mutual decision that benefitted both parties in the end because we finally confronted the issue facing us. So I moved on with the hopes that perhaps this time I am worthy of this second chance at life and love.
Lesson: Only if you are willing to take the risk, and brave the chances that you can deeply appreciate what you are missing. In real love it is always worth the fight, although it is not always that all will emerge as successful as the other. Just don't give up on love for love knows no age, boundary, race or gender.