INTERPRETASYON

Pagsasalarawan 

Isang araw sa nagdaan.

Hanggang Ngayon.

Kasama ang Bukas.

At sa hinaharap.

TAMANG PANAHON

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Walang pasabi.                                             Walang paalam.

Pero alam na darating.

Na mangyayari.

Maraming tanong.

Hindi maintindihan.

Bakit? Talaga? Ganun lang?

Walang paalam.

Walang pakikipag-laban.

Walang sagot.

Nangangarap.

Umaasa.

Pagdating sana ng panahon.

Hindi man bukas.

Hindi rin ngayon.

Sana balang araw.

KAWALAN

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Hindi alam saan patungo.    

Naglalakad, tumatakbo. 

Biglang huminto. Lumingon sandali.

Sumakay sa pinagsama-samang pawid.

Naglalayag sa gitna ng tubig.

Malayo. Hindi alam saan patungo.

Tahimik na hangin, ngayon ay malamig.

Napadpad sa lugar na hindi pamilyar sa akin.

Maganda. Masaya. Puno ng buhay.

Nakita ko. Nakita mo ba?

Sana dito na lang.

Sa akin na lang.

Umaga, araw at gabi nandiyan lang.

Tumatawa, ngumingiti at minsan umaawit.

Masaya, maligaya, sana mas magtagal pa.

Habang papalapit ako, lumalayo naman sa akin.

Gumalaw. Nauntog. Nagbago. Nawala.

Yung dating maganda at masaya biglang naglaho.

Ang kaninang maliwanag ngayon ay napaka-dilim.

Walang makita. Walang marinig.

Sumisigaw subalit walang tinig.

Walang nakakarinig.

Nasaan ako. Nasaan ka. Nasan sila.

Wala na. Nag-iisa sa kawalan.

Pilit na tumatayo ngunit 
patuloy na nadadapa.   

Durog. Sugatan. Hindi makagulapay.

Buhay, oo pero hindi alam hanggang kailan.

Kung bukas darating at masisilayan sana nga.

Bagaman ito ay isa na lang pagasa - salamat.

Hanggang kailan?

Hindi din alam.

Paano na? Walang nakakaalam.

LOSING A FRIEND

Please allow me to be a little more emotional this time, as I am mourning over a death of a friend. Someone who would try to give a smile to everyone but is always holding back. Someone very few could understand ... someone like ME.

I have said a lot in my other accounts ... I just want to remember you with love and pride. So, here's to you Aries Rufo.

http://www.rappler.com/nation/106448-rappler-investigative-reporter-aries-rufo-dies

TRIVIAL

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I often say small things matter      

Because honestly it does.          

It makes one lonely soul smile

Even for a while.

And for a sentimental one like me

Saying hi, how are you or

checking me out means a lot.

More so, if you will say, you care.

I thought I have lost this side of me.

I’ve been concealing it all these years.

Unfortunately, I’m losing my hold.

I am losing control.

Perhaps in life those things that are natural,

Those things that you are born with,

No matter how much you try to change,

Will always go back to what it’s supposed to be.

I’ve been battling with my inner child.

The child I have once lost because I knew

I needed to grow not only for myself

But for my family.

With the lines in my forehead

and plenty of silver hairs,

I don’t know if I would let that child go out.

Though I know there’s more to life than my own happiness.

I wish to grow more, not in physique

But mentally and emotionally.

I need to be the person I have to be

Today, tomorrow and the days to come.

EMBATTLED

Again, I am combating one of the hardest battles in life, fighting thyself.

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I’ve been there before and here again.  

I thought I’ve learned from the past.

But maybe not enough,

Again, in this phase called crossroads.

I hope I will soon overcome it, for it’s not easy.

And as I am now crossing it, I need to wear a mask.

I blame no one but thyself.

So, while it hurts,

I cry in silence, alone.

Smiling yet grieving inside.

Bleeding yet cheering others.

Hurting yet comforting a friend.

Why? all because of STUPIDITY.

Struggling anew to stand up straight

Since no one knows, no one cares

I have to do it alone.

Shattered in countless pieces

Those broken parts will never be whole again.

But it can be restored in due time.

Battles do take time.

But even war has its end.

Soon it will be over, another memory to remember.

For now ... just be BRAVE!

FROM A DISTANCE

               . . .  only the heart and the eye                       knows

               . . . only the heart can feel

              . . .  only the eyes can see


              . . . only the heart and the eye 
                     can understand
             
               . . . . only them can accept                               without question

LIFE CHOICES

FORWARD LOOKING

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Things can be so tiring sometimes.      

Rest your heart.

Free your mind.

Accept.

Let go.

Move on.

In time it will just be a MEMORY.

You will smile as if nothing happens.

Will Shrug off the thought

And tell yourself, I AM HAPPY

and done over you, sorry!

ABRUPT

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Wandering.
Wondering.
Lost.
Hurting.

How do I love thee?

LOVE CYCLE

In life there are many possibilities. We can either be happy, sad, grateful, or contented among others.

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Happy, probably because you have a loving family, a good partner, supportive friends or a successful career or business.  

Sad, perhaps because somehow you know you failed in some aspects of your life.

Grateful, because you have that simple life yet you are loved and everything seems to be okay.

And contented, because you don’t want to ask for more.

But being happy, sad, grateful, or contented cannot be done and achieved by your lonesome self, for they say that, “no man is an island.”

As we traverse the road of life, we meet different kinds of people.

There are some that we are fortunate to be friends with.

And there are those we opt to ignore for some reasons.

However, there are also those that we allow to enter our lives, those whom we care for and love.

There is no such thing as instant, because everything goes through a process. You don’t easily fall in love with someone in just one meeting. Love should not be misconstrued as admiration, fascination, or infatuation. Or even liking someone because of his or her abilities or character.

Since not all are fortunate to enter our lives, we should therefore exercise care and responsibility when entrusting our emotions to that someone in order not to regret anything in the end.

You don’t meet someone merely because you want to play along with that person. You don’t lure someone to be close to you because you admire that person. One should have at least the kindest, if not the best, intention, even if the situation is not at its best timing.

Toying with someone’s feelings can be very painful, especially if from the start you knew what will likely happen, and if you are repeatedly told to think wisely and not just go with the flow.

When one cares for someone, there are sacrifices and risks involved.

If you want love, learn and be willing to love as well. Appreciate the person while he or she is still there. Talk while you can. Explain if you have to. Ask if you need to. Don’t make it a habit to just abandon someone and forget what happened earlier. Remember, not all people are lucky to have a second chance, be it in love, career, opportunity or other things that some people tend to ignore but are important for others.

As the old saying goes, “don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”

SA BUHAY ....

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Sa bilis ng galaw ng panahon,  

Sa pagbabago ng maraming bagay sa paligid,

Sa maraming bagay na nangyayari

Madalas hindi na napapansin

May ibang bagay pa palang nandiyan.

Kaya madalas kapag biglang napahinto ka,

Kapag biglang tumigil sa karaniwang galaw o ikot

Doon lang nakikita, napapansin na may ibang bagay pa pala.

Dahil nasanay na, madalas sa iisang direksyon na lang,

Dahil sanay ka na, karaniwang yun na lang

Kaya din minsan nangyayari ang aksidente

kasi may naninibago, mayroong nabibigla.

At dahil nakatuklas ng bago sa paningin,

Isang araw susubukan ka, bibiruin.

Titignan kung gaano ka katatag.

Ikaw naman, mag-iisip magpapadala ka ba,

O hihinto sandali, o iikot sa mas malayo para magtagal pa.

Kalimitan kapag bago maganda, Nakakatuwa, gusto mo sana sa’yo na lang.

Kaya lang ikaw sa sarili mo laging may tanong,

Kailangan pa ba? Hindi ba sisikip lang o baka magpagulo?

Alam mo ang sagot, pero dahil gusto mo kaya sige lang,

Bahala na, kaya gagawin mo pa rin.

Habang tumatagal ang bago nagiging luma.

Nagiging bahagi ng araw-araw na buhay.

Isang araw mapapaisip ka, mas okay ba ito kesa sa dati?

Babalik ka ba sa nauna, tapos iyong bago?

Dahil ayaw mong pumili, salitan na lang.

Sa huli, kung anong mas matatag ‘yon ang matitira,

‘Yun ang maiiwan sa’yo kasi nandiyan na pareho.

Kung hanggang kailan, bahala na.

HOPEFUL

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Finally you came and visit me, us. 

I have been waiting for you for days. 

We were supposed to have a game bonding last Friday.

I waited Saturday and Sunday but there was no sign of you.

On Monday we called, you said you will come.

Again, you did not show up.

Today, unexpectedly you dropped by. 

It was a short visit compared to the usual days that you will stay for hours and sometimes, even doze off in the sofa.

It was just to make up for the day that you said you will come but failed to appear.

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I talked to you and called your attention for I noticed your drinking spree is becoming too frequent again.

You said you have a problem at home.

I inquired and asked why.

Shortly before you came I was watching a video commercial.

It was touching. I felt guilty again, because once more, I am reminded of my failure as a child.

I only have a mother, yet I could not make up for the times that are left of me, and of us.

I have become too distant… to my father when he was still there, and now, again to my mother.  But at least not with my two youngest brothers. There are two others but whom I seldom communicate with.

I couldn’t comfort you because you didn’t want to talk about it.

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It’s sad that the person hurting you my dear brother is supposed to be the one giving you, us, the comfort and understanding that every child need.

But what can I do, I also have issues with her.

I would not want to regret again someday, but it has become too hard for me to just shrug off issues involving her.

And so, rather than complaining or ranting, I have kept my distance and silence. But I hope that instead of following what I have done, you would do otherwise and do not give up. I hope you can find a way to resolve your issues. And hopefully, bring back the happy family that we once had.