HOPEFUL

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Finally you came and visit me, us. 

I have been waiting for you for days. 

We were supposed to have a game bonding last Friday.

I waited Saturday and Sunday but there was no sign of you.

On Monday we called, you said you will come.

Again, you did not show up.

Today, unexpectedly you dropped by. 

It was a short visit compared to the usual days that you will stay for hours and sometimes, even doze off in the sofa.

It was just to make up for the day that you said you will come but failed to appear.

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I talked to you and called your attention for I noticed your drinking spree is becoming too frequent again.

You said you have a problem at home.

I inquired and asked why.

Shortly before you came I was watching a video commercial.

It was touching. I felt guilty again, because once more, I am reminded of my failure as a child.

I only have a mother, yet I could not make up for the times that are left of me, and of us.

I have become too distant… to my father when he was still there, and now, again to my mother.  But at least not with my two youngest brothers. There are two others but whom I seldom communicate with.

I couldn’t comfort you because you didn’t want to talk about it.

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It’s sad that the person hurting you my dear brother is supposed to be the one giving you, us, the comfort and understanding that every child need.

But what can I do, I also have issues with her.

I would not want to regret again someday, but it has become too hard for me to just shrug off issues involving her.

And so, rather than complaining or ranting, I have kept my distance and silence. But I hope that instead of following what I have done, you would do otherwise and do not give up. I hope you can find a way to resolve your issues. And hopefully, bring back the happy family that we once had.